Saturday, August 11, 2012

6. Out of control.

We all ended up getting 20 hours of community service and 6 months probation. Not like it was enough to teach anyone. Hell Melissa and I looked forward to community service. We fucked around and all the leaders just sat around and laughed. Probation was just a joke. I personally only met my Probation officer once and that's the day he laid the "law" down. His version of the "law" was telling me to stay out of trouble and respect my mother. The funny thing is I haven't had much respect towards my mother ever since the divorce with my father.
 Tyler and I were still going strong. We talked, texted, and myspaced all day long. My phone was constantly ringing off the hook. As our relationship grew stronger and we started developing feelings. As I was getting carried away with all the words and feelings, I lost contact with all family. I only had contact honestly with two people. These two people were Tyler and my wifey Mindy 
My wifey was and still is the only person who knows me from inside and out. We were inseparable.

 As time went on my mother and I grew farther apart. I was a rebellious teen and never wanted to listen. I would sneak out late at night, I stole her car, I got drunk repeatedly, I smoked Marijuana, popped Adderol, and stole her cigarettes. I lashed out a lot which ended up in hitting, screaming, or threatening. To this day I am not sorry for the things I did to her. It sounds heartless yes, but she has done far worse then I have ever done to her. I mean the Marijuana, Adderol, alcohol, and cigarettes affected my body not hers. 
I was out of control.
Mother put me in councling multiple times, tons of different counclers.
This didn't help me what so ever.
Maybe if she would have stopped talking shit about my father, and trying to ruin his life she would have had better control of me.
Daddy-o was an alcoholic and had severe depression. But I am sorry, if my wife divorced and played mind games with me I probably would to.

Daddy-o cheated on mother but, it wasn't until after she let her true colors show. 
As I started acting out against mother I decided I didn't want to stay with her anymore. I stayed at Daddy-o's and even went to the family friends house Wendy.
Wendy  called mother one day and mother came to talk to me to see if she could straighten me out.
This only pissed me off and I threw a phone at her and tried to run out. I was stopped at the door. Daddy-o, mother, and her friend Avril carried me out to the car and made sure I couldn't escape.
They drove me to MERY GREELY to get evaluated.

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